I am LadyGaGaMonster♕. I am 101 years of age and I have 101 Dalmatian-like spots. Loljk.


Kidding aside, I'm Abby. 13 years young. ♀ I live in Earth's own heaven.
A very interesting person, but sometimes boring too. :P
I've got a great sweet tooth. :D It eats a lot. And I mean it.
I love random things. But to top it all of, I like monsters and other stuffs that may be a bit weird to you.
I can be a b*tch sometimes. No, I mean.. PMS is the b*tch. And sometimes, it's not. It comes naturally to me.
I get obsessed at times. With bands, with celeb crushes, and sorts. Don't hate me for that, srsly.
And yes, I do love books like any typical school girl does. Except, I'm not into Math books or Science and such. And for me, popularity of books, is not the major agenda in buying it.

こんにちは！ I'm sincerely sorry for not blogging for a couple of weeks and even the 1st day of 2010! Boo me! :( 残念に思う！ So, I'm obviously using text translator because I'm bored like that. Bear with me, please? I'd be glad if you would.

Today is the 3rd day of 2010. And this, is my official.. ninety-first post in this blog account.


A new year, a new hope, a new page turned in my book ready to unravel new events in my own life plot. I'm sure that 2010 would be unquestionably good, as well as mean. That's what I'm sure of.
I'm uncertain if this year would be BETTER or WORSE than my last.. I'm not sure if I could handle the startling turn of events.. But, I hope I could.

I am sure to break down into tears because of a teeny-weeny reason or a big deal kind of thing.
I am sure to ballyhoo every now and then. To laugh like it's the world's end. To make new friends. To make new frenemies (which I hope I could resolve!).
And to spread love♥ as long as my heart could handle doing so.

I scolded myself to stop fore-telling what's going to happen in my not-so-cool-but-a-bit-of-it-is-spunky life. I think, I should enjoy every second of this year. Because, it would be different. A lot different, than the past few years. :)


I begged myself to overcome chickenheadedness and stage fright. Gaaah, why do I have the LOWEST SELF-ESTEEM ever?! I hate myself for being not-so-confident.
There's this traumatic experience I had when I was 7 years old, I guess.

There was a party in a certain hotel (I couldn't remember the name). It's the Christmas Party of the company my Dad's into. So, I'm like bored all through-out the party because I can't talk to anyone else except my Dad and Mom. Then I saw a girl with her bunch of friends. I was shy but I had to make friends because Dad and Mom said so. Then, I waved at her and said "Hi!" I smiled. Then all she did was to stare at me for about 15 seconds then she quietly walk away with her friends. AT NAPAHIYA AKO NUN. :( :))
Ever since then, I've become a coward in making friends.
But then as I look back.. all I could say was "Hey, I made friends. And I treasure them like precious diamonds! No, even more precious than any other material things! I definitely don't hate that girl who I think got scared of me. (Who wouldn't be scared in that bloody dress I'm wearing! It's super short! So not my type!) Maybe she's pretty fed up too with her own life. I hope we'd meet again at some time and be friends with."


I told myself to overlook the past and forgive all dejected incidents that happened.
But maybe, some of the wounds in my heart are just too big to heal. So, I advise myself to think twice before making decisions. Because, I know I'm going too suffer the consequences.


I dissuaded my own self to avoid heartbreaks this year.
I was given no choice but to scrape all the emotions out of my heart, no matter how it hurt me.
But, in my own perspective, that doesn't mean I'm going to give him up.
There are complications that couldn't be evaded between the people around him and the people around me.
And I'm counting on him that he won't let go of me. 'Cause I'm really trying hard to hold onto him. Giving him up never came to my mind even for a split second.
I am HOPING to have 0% of heartbreak this year. Just HOPING.
I wish I wouldn't say these words this year.. "And thus, our love came to an end"


And last, but definitely not the least!


Others will ask, "Why do you keep heading down a road you can't even see? What you're doing is so reckless!"


I say, "No matter how pathetic and sophisticated it seems in the eyes of other people.. maybe, just maybe.. I love surprises and adventures than any other teen. And I couldn't just stop and stare right there waiting for gleeful things or events to show p. I'm making my own glee show this time around. And, I'm not letting ANYONE to stop me from that. Except, that Guy from above."